My Rant!

This is not intended for any one who really reads my blog, just at the general population. Here goes!

This is to all who ask these questions:

1) Don't you like children?

2) Are you going to have kids?

3) When are you going to have kids?

When ever I meet some one knew and we are starting to get to know each other, usually those questions pop either verbally or mentally. Well I need to get this off my chest and maybe even print it out and hand to every new friend I make.

Yes CJ and I want children and once you get to know me you will find that I love children and if you let me close enough I may end up steeling your kids. LOL! We have been trying for three years and have been working with doctors to find out what is going on and how to control it.

Well after switching doctors cause of the life change, we have found that I am the sole purpose of our troubles and that the doctor has started me on Letrozole to help me ovulate.

Letrozole is a medication usually used for breast cancer patients but they have found it also helps women with Poly-Cystic Ovaries. It is like Clomid, but with less side effects and a smaller chance of multiples. The doctor will try this for the next six months and then we will take some more invasive actions. Keep our fingers crossed and prayers said it wont take that long.

This has been a very touchy subject for me for a while and it has been made harder as siblings get pregnant and more friends are pregnant than not.

How do I handle it? Who knows ? I keep a journal and I try to express it to CJ, but other than that I keep it under wraps.

I know when I talk to people about this they become apologetic and they all have the same comment "It will be your turn and your time, Heavenly Father has a plan." I know they just aren't sure what to say, and I am thankful, but if you read this don't post that, I know this info and trust me I am in constant contact with HF and we have an understanding.

I am thankful that I have been given the chance to learn patience and realize that there are so many things in life I can't control and wont be able to control. I am blessed for a supportive husband and family who try their best to understand our situation and I hope they know I love them a bunch.

Ok my ranting is done! Thanks for listening!

I have the opportunity...

As many know I am a convert to The Church of Jesus Christ of Ladder Day Saints at the age of 19. Since I was in college I went straight into Relief Society. I loved the friendships it brought to my life, but I knew there was stuff i missed, when we sang primary songs and women spoke about their Young women awards. I quickly forgot about that and just thought I would probably have the experience through my kids. Well I was wrong I will get to experience some of it NOW. For the past 3 years I have been blessed with the opportunity to serve in the Young Women's program, I have been in the presidency and the past two years I have been an Adviser. I have also been working on my personal progress

So For two years in a row I was a camp director for our ward and I was able to experience so many great things. I have made great friends and got to know my girls so well. I loved all the activities and the wonderful spirit that was always there.

This year I got to go to Youth Conference! Oh I loved it! we had a lot of fun with the girls! There were some great seminars about Temple Marriage/ Sexually pure, Testimony of HF, Dating, and Cursing. All the presentations were done very well and the kids were entertained and seemed to be involved through out.

I am so thankful to have the gospel in my life and have faith in Heavenly Father to know what I need in my life and giving the blessings to be part of the programs I missed growing up.

A new hobby

So I have wanted to start this hobby since last year, but just never had the free time. So now that I have a lot of time on my hands I have taken the time to be creative with CANDY! Since EVERYONE I know is pregnant, I have made candy for the showers.

The first batch were suckers and turned out pretty good! Everyone loved them. This next batch I just made single candies. They turned out pretty good as well. So I am exited to make these. They are time consuming, but hey I have plenty of that on my hands!

Freedom Fest

Well this year for the Independence Holiday we celebrated on July 1st at the Base's Freedom Fest. We went with the family I babysit for and had so much fun! They had plenty of jumping castles and a paintball arena, and plenty of food.

Since this is a four day weekend for CJ we were glad to be able to go have some fun, but since he has to work early Tuesday morning we wont be able to see fire works on the Fourth.

THIS IS MY FAVORITE HOLIDAY!